Post 9

Does anyone know what I should do? Who deals with cases like mine? I don't know how to tell my mum that she makes me want to kill myself? That would break her heart. How to explain to my father, that as much as I do love him, I can't show it because I can't feel love? How do I feel pain without feeling love? Or feeling loved?

Well,I have felt love. From who? M*****, my friends, my colleagues and OMG N****. He loves me to the moon. But I have to push him away just because of religion.

I did my cuts. Might do more. I find it easier when I look into the eyes of my H****** R***** poster. Because I cut for love.